Absolutely.Sugar.Free

最想見的那個，不在。最想去的地方，沒錢。

這麽長的聖誕假期竟然不知道要做什麽。

去臺灣爬山看雪聼起來不錯。

媽的他跑去美國做什麽。

算。了。

到時候再想。

Been having not exactly pleasant dreams these days.

Not that I’m really worry about it but they’re getting even more horrible day by day.

Last night I dream of myself driving somewhere near Putrajaya (I actually remember the bridge) in a rush, forgot where I wanted to rush to, but I drove over a boy and his arm got cut off (yes I remember the visual of his arm is being separated from his body, battle royale style =_=”). His mom was there too.

So I drove them to the near by hospital.

The doctor said something like the boy’s arm can’t be saved anymore.

*gasp*

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Just now I bumped into a site which so called able to derive the meaning of our dreams, so yeah, I search for something similar such as “dream about someone’s hand got chop off”, and it says

夢見別人的手被砍斷
夢到別人手被砍，表示你可以領導群眾，成就高人一等。若是夢到你的手被砍，表示你將有一個強而有力的敵手跟你競爭。

LOL WTF that doesn’t sound bad at all.

Next: “dream about driving”

夢見開汽車
夢到你開汽車或是小轎車，這是一種財富和魅力的象徵，男性會常常獲得女性的青睞，異性緣很好，而女性則是本身有想要成為女強人的潛意識。

Lols subconscious huh. Guess I don’t deny that.

Wondering why I can’t find something simple like “dream about running into car accident” or something.

Tsk.

我想了很久，答案好象是沒有。

6嵗的時候，連父母都沒能把我留在他們身邊。

常常我在想，是不是應該永遠就這樣過著沒根的漂浮生活。

不是沒有家，只是很不會戀家。

而且好像太喜歡也太習慣自由沒人管。

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飄啊飄啊。

要勇敢一點點。

十年後不要成為我現在看不起的那些所謂的大人。

如煙  曲/石頭　詞/阿信

我坐在床前　望著窗外　回憶滿天
生命是華麗錯覺　時間是賊　偷走一切

七歲那一年　抓住那隻蟬　以為能抓住夏天
十七歲的那年　吻過他的臉　就以為和他能永遠

有沒有那麼一種永遠　永遠不改變　擁抱過的美麗都　再也不破碎
讓險峻歲月不能在臉上撒野　讓生離和死別都遙遠　有誰能聽見

我坐在床前　轉過頭看　誰在沉睡
那一張蒼老的臉　好像是我　緊閉雙眼

曾經是愛我的　和我深愛的　都圍繞在我身邊
帶不走的那些　遺憾和眷戀　就化成最後一滴眼淚

有沒有那麼一滴眼淚　能洗掉後悔　化成大雨降落在　回不去的街
再給我一次機會　將故事改寫　還欠了他一生的　一句抱歉

有沒有那麼一個世界　永遠不天黑　星星太陽萬物都　聽我的指揮
月亮不忙著圓缺　春天不走遠　樹梢緊緊擁抱著樹葉　有誰能聽見

耳際　眼前　此生重演　是我來自漆黑　而又回歸漆黑
人間　瞬間　天地之間　下次我　又是誰

有沒有那麼一朵玫瑰　永遠不凋謝　永遠驕傲和完美　永遠不妥協
為何人生最後會像一張紙屑　還不如一片花瓣曾經鮮豔

有沒有那麼一張書籤　停止那一天　最單純的笑臉和　最美那一年
書包裡面裝滿了蛋糕和汽水　雙眼只有無猜和無邪　讓我們無法無天

有沒有那麼一首詩篇　找不到句點　青春永遠定居在　我們的歲月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋　笑忘人間的苦痛　只有甜美

有沒有那麼一個明天　重頭回一遍　讓我再次感受曾　揮霍的昨天
無論生存或生活　我都不浪費　不讓故事這麼的後悔

有誰能聽見　我不要告別
我坐在床前　看著指尖　已經如煙

I think one of key to success in doing whatever, is the ability to prioritize things should be done.

Like how few years ago when I was still in school, I wouldn’t study EVERYTHING for exams. I just pick topics I think that are SUITABLE TO BE SET AS EXAM QUESTIONS to study. Of course it’s not always spot on, I won’t even say the chances of hitting the targets are high, but you know, it’s important to have priorities and strategies. Even guerilla stunts need strategies.

I used to think prioritize things are fairly easy until this year - when all of sudden I have many stuff in mind that I want to do - and it’s not easy at all. It’s hard when you’re trying to balance things out, not to give in and give up too much.

Things get even tougher when I KNOW I’M SUPPOSE TO DO THIS FIRST but god knows why we just love giving ourselves many kind of excuses to do other stuff - result is clear, in the end the main stuff gets delayed.

Not to mention there are always distractions that look like opportunities. And YOU THOUGHT YOU CAN RIDE ON IT. Should stop and think twice if it’s actually helping.

Now’s almost the end of Oct. There are things that I HAVE TO GET THEM TO BE DONE FIRST in the rest of the months of 2008, if I want to move on further on the path that I’ve set.

Of course, I know it’s always good to keep the door open, but the issue will still be what should be get done first?

PORTFOLIO OF COURSE.

Kanasai I better make a good one this time.

While making sure the management training project side gets its share of love too.

Priority is indeed a pain in the ass.

I think sometimes I’m too overconfidence with myself. And it brought me into a huge trouble recently.

Initially I thought I could use it as a chance to get myself to improve and learn more but in the end there’s only so much I could do. Well a very good lesson learnt, and I’ve gain something else too. Although I’ve done a horrible thing to get stuff covered up.

Sometimes I’m so confident that I wouldn’t get into troubles by breaking certain rules - most of the time it worked. Kinda love-hate it, because I know I dun look like a rule breaker myself and my doings and promises could be quite convincing some time - esp to people who don’t know me so well.

There’s time I hope people don’t trust me so much. Vice versa.

There’s time I hope I’m not so smart in playing mind games. Vice versa.

Of course, it could be just myself being silly all the while.

It’s hard to tell sometimes.

Although I’m so tired. SO tired.

But when i found out tomorrow or rather, today is the first day of Mayday’s 7th album presale, I’m all awake again.

I know someone’s in Taiwan now. I know she’ll help me. Zomg I love my friend. I love Mayday too.

上帝創世紀只花7天,一隻蟬一生只活7天
五月天第七張專輯一等就是700天

五月天[作品7号]2008純新原創天碟

如果CD總有一天會消失﹐
我們何不毫無保留寫這最後一首詩!

後青春期的詩X十二首

Poetry of The Day After….
MAYDAYthe 7th album
首批限時限量CONCERT版1CD+1門票
※首批專輯內附2008/12/13台北中山足球場

[五月天五萬人出頭天]新歌飆唱會門票一張
【預購獨享】
日本寫真大師 木村直軌 X 亞洲第一天團 五月天
2009立體組變寫真桌曆+[爆肝青春]錄音全搜錄DVD
※搶先收錄”出頭天”完整版MV

I’m hoping she can get me the CD outlets version which the gift is a calendar instead of the 7-11’s version, a chapter from their book to be published later (i’m gonna buy it anyways..) but wells, I shall not be a greedy girl now. Any version will do! XD

Happy happy happy.

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的
追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了

為自己的人生鮮艷上色 先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機 現在終於飛回我手裡

所謂的那快樂 赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了 誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午後吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

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聼周傑倫的新歌。這首不錯，很有意義和共鳴的一首歌。

是沒有在稻田鄉村裏面生活過啦。不過就算沒有擁有過的，也要學會珍惜不是嗎。

好像提醒著我，應該對我那個似有似無的家做些什麽。

所謂的那快樂，也不是賺很多很多錢，然後在某方面贏很多很多人。那是很爽啦沒錯，可你又能站在高処多久？

最近一次突然覺得很幸福的時候竟然是坐在同事車的后座上，一行幾個人大家一起外出用午餐。

車外天氣是陰陰的，陽光是溫溫暖暖的，路上是出奇平靜的，車内的人都是只想吃飯的。

像這樣就夠了不是嗎。

。

當然要努力不要這麽輕易就放棄夢想也是應該的。

只要想想有這樣能把夢想實現的機會已經是跨過一大步了。

你想過你父母可有過這樣子的機會。

誰知道。

One of the many things that I wish to do is to be able to play some good piano pieces. Started learning since 5, received a grade 8 cert at 16, but years later, all I have now is just a set of very rusty skill.

Hopefully, hopefully when I grow older, when I have a place to stay by myself, I can pick up a bit of here and there again.

.

The truth that you leave is a piano piece composed by pianoboy, from Taiwan. Nice emo piece. Whoever he is, *hearts*.

It should sound the best when you have a pianoboy to play the song just yourself.

Yea, and in return I’ll play you a Rhapsody in Blue, haha.

Or maybe at least The Girl with the Flaxen Hair. =P

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Suddenly realised there are so many things that I have let go unintentionally during the uni days; while I did pick up some other things along the way.

Is that what you call gain some, lose some?

Why can’t we have them all at the same time.

So it has been a year since I officially started my working life. I’m now in my second company.

Coincidentally, I work for .com stuff in these two companies: A vendor for the OS company, your evil microsoft com/malaysia and the cable tv company, your evil astro com my.

Words can’t explain how much I’ve learn in a year. Not to mention most people I’ve met so far have been fairly kind to me. I left the previous company because I see the limited room for me to grow after 3 months, and a good supervisor of mine is leaving as well. I join the current company because I see it as a chance, and I give myself a year to stay around. So far so good, as I receive different type of training while at the same time I’m still doing what I like: the design and the internet stuff.

Have gained a lot of motivation and a clearer view of what I want to do next since the working life started. I recognize what’s the strength and weakness better. For career, I have an idea of which way I should look into / explore around while life wise, certainly there are stuff that I want to accomplish for at least few years in the future.

Probably am doing not too badly so far. One thing though, I dun get to save enough. Therefore for the coming year, I am aiming to work outside of this country for the better pay. Of course, chances of learning is still playing a very big part in my next job, as now people are still willing to guide me along thanks to the age. Will like to try out a typical ad agency or interactive agency next, challenges are fun.

Hmms. We shall see where will I be, the same day, next year.